I think its clear that this chaos isn’t going anywhere soon, and whatever the root cause of the virus, it doesn’t really matter as much as the harmony that arose from the first few weeks of the lock-down. Now we’re seeing people at each other’s throats on who’s right, or wrong, which is so sad, as at the start it was lovely to hear ‘we’re in together’ etc. Remember the previous blog on the vibration of love and fear? Huge difference, and we need to stay strong.
I know some have been curios as to my lack of interaction over the last few months, but as I said back at the start of lock-down, this time, (a very important time in history), will mark how we handled it and survived. I nearly said God willing. But it’s not about God helping us through it (although most of you will know I don’t dis anyone who has the comfort of faith). It’s about taking the time to get to know ourselves from the inside out. To know when we’re running out of mental, emotional, or spiritual steam, and do something for ourselves to get us back on track.
The last five year (and especially the last three and half since losing Jay) have caused havoc with all my ‘bodies’ (mental, physical and even spiritual) as when he died, I lost my strong faith too. Physically, it brought on fibromyalgia and boy did it make an entrance!
As there were no classes, no TEWV meetings to go to etc., it meant I could really be still and sit with myself. I did some self-sabotage work, some shadow work and instead of rushing through the exercises and meditations, I really took the time to dig deep and find the roots of my issues.
Yes, the shock and trauma of losing my son was a big part, but I already had mental and physical issues from my past, especially my childhood.
I now had the luxury of TIME and as I say in The Me Programme, that’s what we need to heal, and I’m pleased to say I think I’m turning a corner. I at least feel a bit more like me! But then I’ve worked through a lot of stuff this last few months, and for that, I thank these crazy times.
So, before the chaos gets worse, and it looks like it’s going to, please if you have them, re-read your self-help books. Watch/listen to the wonderful Lee Harris and Glenn Harold, because they have literally saved my sanity through all the isolation and to Christine Lopes for giving me the missing pieces of a few ‘jigsaws’. I really can’t thank them enough. Great respect to them for keeping it real, which is something I’ve always taken pride in doing myself.
As always, keep strong and hopefully not too long till we can meet in person.